The last two months have indescribably busy. I don't know if I am coming or going. Between meetings, trying to get things in order to start my master's program, and trying to have a personal life, I have hit the proverbial wall. I dog-sat this weekend for my brother and sister-in-law and it was very eventful. Mickey Mouse (his boy Jack Russell) was attacked and I had to take him to the vet. I slept with this crazy dog and took him up and down the steps, the couch, and the bed! The things we do for "children", right??? Having said all that I did not get much rest/sleep. I have fallen behind in school work and even spending time with my sweetheart. It is sad and unnecessary.
Because of the school stress or whatever you call it, we (Erik, trusted friends, and I) are in deep prayer about where God wants me to be next year. It's a hard decision. I don't know if He will keep me where I am now or move me. I don't want to move unless He tells me to. I am trying to follow Proverbs 3:5-6 that says, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not onto your own understanding but in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path". It's so much harder said than done at times. But I am trusting. Only by His strength and might am I able to do what I am doing. (If you call me sometime I will be happy to tell you EVERYTHING my school has us doing this year.) I was listening to Beth (Moore) this morning during my Bible study and she reminded me that sometimes we do too much! We don't say no. There is a biblical reason for saying no! We are to do what we do for the glory of the Lord! Philippians 1:6 says that He began a good work in me! The Greek word for good is agathos and one of it's synonyms is EXCELLENT!! He desires excellence from us. Am I being excellent? Am I glorifying Him by doing half-way stuff???? It brought tears to my eyes because once again the Lord used Beth to speak to my heart the truth I was seeking. It was what I was trying to say to Erik this past week. It makes so much sense!
Now some of you may say, 'Is this a good time to start your master's program?' and my answer is yes. This is only because it's overdue and it is my hope to lessen the other stresses in my life by doing so. So with all that said, pray for me. I want to be obediant. I want to go where God leads me and not let my desires and my hopes get in the way. Until next time...
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I totally understand what you're going through with wondering if you're in the right place work-wise...I went through that last year, and after prayer, I found that God was leading me in a new direction to a new school. Moving and changing schools was the scariest thing I've ever done, but it has been worth it (even the living at home with mama again part). God will show you the direction to go...just trust Him and keep praying. I'll keep you in my prayers. I love you girl!
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